Coping

Friends and family,

We are really falling down on the postings. Some of you might wonder why. Some days we really have nothing at all to say, mostly because we are status quo, although Allison is improving a tiny bit each day. Sometimes she does show improvements but we just don't know how to tell you about them yet. Other days we have nothing that we feel comfortable about sharing in this naked blog world--honestly it's really painful, miserable, or just downright sucky. Most days we are so worn out we can't. Today I would have thought that was the case, but then I got the urge for some reason, probably because our outside world keeps reaching in and showing us that we are not alone. I know you all want news and that this is a great way to share it. But really sometimes the news is not at all what we can, or are willing, to share, given the realities of living day to day with the massive changes that have happened to our family. I have to tell you this because so much has changed, and even though we still want to be part of our old world, there are times that we are not capable of it. We are really struggling being in both our past and present. As for the future, I can't even go there. We just take one day at a time.

So far the shave-a-thon this Saturday has attracted a stir. I think we are all going to have a hard time getting the energy to be there, but it will all be so worth it. When there is nothing else to smile about, Allison does smile at the people choosing to be bald in her honor, especially when she hears that she will be the prettiest one out there. Today she recited their names while she got poked for chemo. Yes, it will make a difference to her, as long as she is awake for it!!

So yes, we are coping, not always very well, but we are.

Cheers,

Dianna